I have never talked about this publically for several reasons, but after recent events, I feel I must or I’ll regret it.
This is my mother, Dolores Aracely.
She has breast cancer.
She’s been sick and fighting for almost 4 years now, at the moment the news hit us, my 4 brothers and me fell in grief, although our mother was too, she assured us she was going to be okay, she was going to get treatment, and they were going to destroy this horrible disease, unfortunately, due to various issues, she could was not able to get threament immediately and so it was delayed for a few weeks, which didn’t help her condition, after my father fighting for it, she was able to get response from the hospital and therapy chemotherapy, her hair eventually fell down too due to the medicine and lost a breast, she fell into depression, but even then did her best to try cheerful for my brothers and me, we at least could be glad that she was with us and hopefully the chemos would work and make her be healthy again, eventually.
After all the time, even with a few bumps in her health, everything was alright, until last year’s December, she started to get problems with breathing, this problem would present itself when she moved around for a fair bit, but mostly it was using stairs that made her be winded, at first, we assumed it could’ve been something to do with the climate, as it was winter, the cold and all, we told her to explain her problem to her doctor, just in case, after she did, the doctor shrugged off as her not doing enough exercise, after some weeks happened, her problem started to get worse, it was when we thought it could be something really bad, even after insisting to her doctor, it wasn’t until January that she could get an appointment for an analisis.
It was then when we got the bad news, the cancer could have got to her back, and lungs, we were told how lung cancer was really hard to threat, and it’s chance of being deadly, however, we where given a more positive report, in a way, her breathing problems could’ve been linked to her heart, it was positive, because heart problems have a better chance to be treated with the proper medicine and therapy, we got her an appointment with a cardiologist, and her chemo dose was changed to a stronger one to fight the disease, we were at panic at this point for what could happen, despite everything, she was always trying to be positive and calm us down, seeing her in such glee an high spirits, eased my worries enough, and tried to be strong for her, all of us did our best to help at whatever we could with the house’s chores so she wouldn’t have to exhaust herself.
Unfortunately…after her appointment on February 14….we got to know that it was her lungs all along, terror filled us and we fell into desperation, despite this she was still keeping a sunny face and comforted us into that she is going to be ok, we were told the only way to be cured from a lesion like that was with chemos, and withstanding everything…I believed her.
Then…just last friday, after getting home from work and then mom and dad came back from my mom’s appointment to her chemo dose, my dad wasn’t…alright, although my mom was keeping her cheerful mood, after a bit of tiptoeing around the subject, my dad finally told me, he confirmed what I always feared in nightmares…….
Mom is dying
She is dying, and there is nothing we can do to help her.
I…felt a hole in my stomach, we cried, so hard, feeling so useless, I had to tell my younger brother the news, and even when he is stronger emotionally than me, we broke down in tears, then my sister came back home, crying because my dad probably had told her already, we only could just…..get together and cry, trying to comfort ourselves, and my mom…she was still smiling, in her good mood, and even now she tells us she is alright.
She has always been such a strong and working person, always looking out for the best of us, she so smart, so kind and sweet, to everyone and her family, even if we had a few arguments there and there in our life, she was always just worrying in the well-being of me and my brothers in her own way, I have never meet someone like her.
I’m very afraid of the future….I don’t know what I’m going to do, this is so hard, I know it’s useless to wish for a chance to change things, but if only… the best we can do right now is make her life as easy and happy as possible, it feels so frustrating not being able to do much else, having to know that no matter what you do nothing will change.
She isn’t even be able to move a lot right now without getting winded and coughing a lot, it’s so disheartening because she was just fine a MONTH ago and had no problem with walking, running or anything… and now, she even need a machine to help her breathe and has to use a wheelchair sometimes, it just happened too fast…
I can’t even begin to imagine what pain she must be going through, and she is always showing us her most kind and caring face to us, even in her current state, she is still worrying for our well-being, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to reach such benevolence, she is really special, unique and overall an incredible person, I owe her so much
I’m sorry for asking for this…but please, help us pray for her well being, or that she at least doesn’t feel much pain anymore so she can live what’s left of her life in peace, please, it’s all I ask….
That’s right! I’m starting with commissions!
I’m still a bit clueless on how these things work, so for now I’ll begin with 3 slots only, and I’ll add more as I get those finished. I might or might not increase prizes later on, so you better take the chance quick! I’ll be offering some cheaper options later on, but for now I want to see how much interest there is for more finished stuff.
To contact me you can either send a note to koidrake.deviantart.com or send an email to firstname.lastname@example.org. You can ask stuff here on tumblr, but I won’t accept any commission that I receive from this site, I don’t trust the message system in here.
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All commissions will be done on A4, 600dpi, unless stated otherwise.
Some general things I’d like to point out, which you don’t have to read but it’d help if you do:
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My bud here is taking commissions, fair prices for quality work, go and get something from him!
I see people’s OCs on my dash sometimes and I’m like “damn I wanna draw them”
Well, I’m getting off my ass and doing that
Geardoll/ Lilac belongs to derekhetrickart
Ghost Girl belongs to Gaturo
and Eliza belongs to jongrave
Jeez this is too cute man, much thankss~
HEXAFUSION THING: CURVY CUTE LADY CHALLENGE
Combination the second is Lily and Diva! Loving her dark skin and wavy hair, I think she’s a grade-A cutie! All embarrassed n’ shy! Put some pants on, girl!
Stay tuned kids, we still got two more fusions on the way out!
AW GOSH WHAT A CUTIE
Been playing NL and Isabelle is so adorable I had to draw her again (which this doodle is actually inspired by Heffydoodle’s take on her, which is also the cutest~),
Also did Deirdre which is my favorite villager so far!
Nancy made in a drawchat for Dustin!